Tired Today...as usual

Ever have one of those days when you just wake up tired? You really want to crawl back into bed, throwing the covers over you and hide from the world outside? That's exactly what I felt like doing today. I mean, the day did start off well. I really was excited about the wonderfully nice weather we had today. But right now, as I'm sitting here at the computer, I feel like I have just finished running a marathon or that I've finished a twelve hour shift at one of the local factories. I really wish that I didn't feel this way because this would have been the perfect day to just sit outside and enjoy the weather. For some reason, today felt like an early spring day. The temperature was just right, actually in the lower 70s F. The sun was out and making the world seem so bright. Even the clouds in the sky played nice this time. No gloomy gray ones, just fluffy white ones were seen flying across the blue leisurely. The leaves along the street have almost completely changed in color. Either side of the street is lined with golds, yellows, reds and purples. It makes it look magical in my opinion. There are a few trees that have already begun to let their leaves go, letting the leaves add color to the boring black of the asphalted street. It makes me want to snuggle on the couch with a good book, occassionally looking out the window as the wind takes the leaves down the street. Can you tell this novel writing thing has got me doing it even in the weirdest places? Lol.

Truth be told, I haven't done much of anything since Tuesday. I did more that day than I think I should have and now my body is making me rest. At least, I think that's what is going on. I could always be wrong. My headaches have not gone away nor has the sinus drainage. So I'm going to have to call the rheumy's office tomorrow. I really hope that he says to go ahead and take my shot. I don't know that I would be able to get through this weather without it. My muscles have done nothing but ache since Tuesday night, not letting up for more than five minutes at a time. I'm grateful that I don't have the joint pain on top of it all. Undoubtedly that will come shortly into my life as the weather turns colder and stays colder. Yet I will deal with it when it arrives. For now, I'm longing for the time to return to me when I could walk down the street for blocks and not get winded or have my heart pounding out of my chest. I would so very much like to sit outside or play with my dog in my yard without worry. But I can not do either of those things today. I'm holding onto the faith that I carry with me that one day, maybe soon, I will be able to do one or all of those things I dream of.

My mind is working so long after I stop typing when it comes to that novel contest. I do honestly think it was just the spark that I needed to get me to write once again. The first six pages (4,382 words so far!) have come with an unexpected ease. I do notice that I'm actually working this one out on the computer instead of my usual routine of pen and paper. Maybe that is the difference that I needed. I don't know. All I do know is that I'm having fun and it's brought a smile to my lips that had faded years ago when I wasn't looking. I even caught Chris reading it last night. Lol, it was so funny because he honestly got mad. Not at the fact I had caught him reading my novel-in-progress but because I hadn't written more. The most amazing thing of all is that my brother, Billy, who has really little interest in reading much less writing wants to come up with a story of his own. It's so cool. Of course, he is afraid to try it because he's not good typing or spelling. I am going to just keep encouraging him to do what he feels he can and I'll help to fill in the gaps. *smiles* It's a good day when you can help others to come out of their shells. I want to work on the story again, but I'm going to wait for a little while longer. I have been writing at the same time each day and want to keep that going. In a way I think it will help me to keep writing even after November is gone. For now, I'm off to do the email thing and maybe a few other journal updates. Hope everyone is having a good night.

Until next time,
Kim